[Sung by Rachel & Kurt from GLEE]
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I’m through with playing by the rules
Of someone else’s game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It’s time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap!
It’s time to try
Defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I’m through accepting limits
”cause someone says they’re so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I’ll never know!
Too long I’ve been afraid of
Losing love I guess I’ve lost
Well, if that’s love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I’d sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I’m defying gravity
I think I’ll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
______________________
“Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won’t suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when the person looks back, she will hear her heart. ”
“But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it’s better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you’re fighting for.”
So I randomly stumbled upon the little speech I wrote for our Youth Group in grade 12, where every week someone was chosen to give a “talk.” (Yes, when I have assignments due I tend to get distracted by looking at old pictures/documents). It’s sad that what I talked about then still applies to me now, even after 4 years. Maybe I should take my grade 12 self’s advice… but obviously it’s not that easy.
Fear
A lot of the talks people have already given, had a lot to do with something that just recently happened to them, or something that meant a lot to them. I always got scared when people joked around about how they would pick me to speak next for youth group. And my excuse was always that I wouldn’t know what to talk about, because nothing “inspired” me at the moment. But now that I think of it, I had no real excuse. I was just afraid. And being afraid has always been a major thing in my life, even though it didn’t hit me at first. And I’m sure that some of us here are controlled by fear, and don’t even know it.
Everyone has their own personal fears; whether it’s a fear of heights, fear of doorknobs, fear of failure, fear of commitment, or a fear of failing their parents or God. Regardless of the types and causes, people who are driven by fear often miss great opportunities because they are afraid to venture out. Instead, they play it safe, avoiding risks and hiding behind the walls they have built to protect them.
The song I’m going to play now, is called Wild Horses. This song talks mainly about her fear of commitment, but if you take out the lines talking about it, it can basically be applied to just fear in general.
That song was basically about this girl who compares her wish to love freely with how wild horses run free. I think my favourite part of this song is when she says “All I want is the wind in my hair. To face the fear but not feel scared.” I think a lot of us want that. We want to overcome the fear in our lives, yet we want to do it the easy way.
But fear isn’t always entirely bad. Fear can sometimes drive people to do better. For example, if someone is afraid of disappointing their parents, they do their best to study hard and get decent grades. But on the other hand, if they let that fear control them to the point that they are almost punishing themselves for every bad mark, fear isn’t a good idea.
And most of you that know me, I am terrified of public speaking. No matter how loud or stupid I can get in public places, I am terrified. And most of the times, I let it dominate me. Since elementary school, I always had an S or an N in class participation. Half the time, I knew the answers to the questions asked, and wanted to give my input into the class discussion, but I was always too afraid of making a mistake. Even now at grade 12, I still hesitate to raise my hand, even though I want so bad to say something. In turn, I miss the opportunity of not only getting the mark, but finally being heard.
There are so many things we want to do, but it’s always fear that stops us. We wish we can do things without thinking about the consequences, or thinking about what other people will think of us. And this is a really big issue, especially in high school. Coming into this big and new environment, all we wanted to do was fit in. We were afraid of being an outcast, so we took the easy way out: we styled our hair the same way as everyone else, wore brands names everyone else wore, and stayed within the lines of our “group.” We were afraid of people rejecting who we really were, so we built these walls to protect us.
Thankfully, with Youth Group, we’re taking a step away from that. We aren’t afraid to show that we have a relationship with God. Youth group is a great opportunity to meet new people and strengthen our relationship with God. If we let our fear of showing people our religious side drives our lives, then we wouldn’t even be here right now, singing and praying together. We wouldn’t be able to enjoy this opportunity. And I am glad that we all chose to be that wild horse.
Just as a last note: Be afraid. As weird as it sounds, be afraid. But don’t let that fear dominate you, and prevent you from missing out on some of the greatest things you could ever come to know or experience. And this is just something I came across on one of those chain e-mail things: As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it’s harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt, because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.
You’re all probably sick of my posts about Justin Bieber, but I don’t care LOL This is one of the songs I ended up loving on his new CD… My sister & I are already in the process of learning to play/sing it acoustically lol I never really listened to the lyrics until recently, and they’re so cute yet so sad. Enjoy fellow Bieber fans! Okay, scold me if I blog again today ’cause I REALLY need to be doing work right now.
That should be me, holding your hand
That should be me, making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me, feeling your kiss
That should be me, buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can’t go on
Do you believe that that should be me
OMG, I am so glad I finally found time to get into GLEE! I cannot wait for the second season to start on April 13th – perfect timing! I couldn’t really find any clips from the show that I really liked on YouTube except for this one, when Mr. Schuester’s trying to let Rachel down gently through song (don’t mind the Spanish subtitles). Speaking of Mr. Schuester, he is my MAN CRUSH at the moment ❤ guys who dress well & sing/dance = nyom nyom nyom! The expressions of Rachel and Ms. Pillsbury in the video say it all… *wipe drool. LOL
I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of this song, especially when it’s acoustic ❤
Even though he seemed a little stuck up in the beginning of this video and the constant hair flick was a little odd, once he did his intro [01:22] and started singing, you just meeeeelt. LOL
If he was at least 18, I don’t think I’d feel as bad having this stupid school girl crush on him.. but seeing as Canada’s age of consent is 16, I guess it doesn’t seem too bad? LOL I kid, I kid… hahaha “kid.” Okay, I’m going to hell. Good night!
I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive
So I’m going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I’m gonna make sure it’s replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
And have I told you?
[Chorus]
I’m not going
‘Cause I’ve been waiting for a miracle
And I’m not leaving
I won’t let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you
We’ve learned to run from anything uncomfortable
We’ve tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we’re broken
I try to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you, have I?
[Chorus]
It’s not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why
Get it right this time (this time)
Let’s leave this all behind
Oh why
We’ll get it right this time
It’s not faith if you’re using your eyes
Oh why
I’ve gone for too long living like I’m not alive
So I’m going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and…
I don’t want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here
[Chorus]
Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you
It’s not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
I was looking for videos on Youtube for my Psych presentation (yes, at 3:15 am on a Saturday) when I randomly came across this cover of Justin Bieber’s “Baby”… I’m not usually big on these asian singers on Youtube covering songs, but I actually really liked how they did it (or maybe it’s just ’cause I friggen LOVE this song! LOL). There’s also a guy at the end that does his own rap instead of Ludacris’ which was cute, except he kinda ruined the vibe by reading it off his paper lol but overall, I liked this cover! Good way to end my night/morning 🙂
Update: (4:00 am) Yeah… forget this presentation tonight LOL Ended up watching almost all the other covers by this group on Youtube, legaci. They’re all SO good so this is just one that I really like! Watching these videos makes me want to get a bunch of people together and just SAAANG LOL Okay I’m delerious, good night!
Finally had a much needed girls night with the ladies last night @ my house/Body English last night:
+ Drinking beer/Baileys (blehhh) with Gil and Mar while getting ready
+ Mar yelling at my computer watching the Raptors game (“IT’S FREEZING!”)
+ The girls making fun of me for my “Black” playlist
+ Mar SO close to forgetting her Lenten promise and eating grilled cheese
+ Yummy Gold Schlagger shots w/gross lemon slices (good one, kazel)
+ Guest List: Amanda L. + 3 guests (it’s legit – you can scan the barcode)
+ Empty club at 12 (I swear the snow wasn’t that bad anymore!)
+ Missed the $2.50 drinks by 5 minutes… obvi
+ Amanda’s mad dash to the washroom after getting hit on
+ My highly-embarassing-impossible-to-shrug-off-almost-fall on the ridiculously-open-and-empty-dance-floor (FMLLLLLL I wanted to die!)
+ Pictures, pictures, pictures & dancing, dancing, dancing!
+ Having to leave when all the really good music started playing
+ Yeah that’s right, I know most of the words to Bedrock… no biggie.
+ News delivered 2 weeks late (my bad!) = M. A. K. E. ❤
Gil & I were watching some of the Wizards of Waverly Place movie today and it reminded me of how much I like Selena Gomez’s song, “Naturally.” She’s so cute… maybe even a celebrity reincarnation? I don’t know what it is about Disney/Family Channel stars and their songs, but I just love them LOL Yup… I’m a nerd.
I don’t know what it is about this song – the catchy beat, the corny lyrics, Justin Bieber himself??? – but I just get into such a good, upbeat mood every time I listen to it and sing along… hence it’s my current ringtone LOL The video is pretty cute too! I love the whole playing hard to get thing… even though I’d probably be PRETTY annoyed/creeped out if a guy was as persistent as Justin was and kept following me around when I didn’t like him lol! Actually, I wouldn’t mind if Justin stalked me… how old is he again? LOL kiddingggggg, relax! Overall, I liked it 🙂
this aint a fairytale. 